Pak Putra dan cinta jgn pergi

Assalaamualaikum
Semalam blk melaka hantar mak. Bertolak ptg, sampai pun dh lewat so terus pi mkn. Apa lg, terus nk try Restoran Pak Putra yg depa dok kata best tu. Mmg not bad la, roti naan dia lembut n ayam tandoori mmg best, terasa rempah ratus n lembut je isinye. Mmg ramai ler, penuh tp cepat je sampai makanan, yelaa takat roti n ayam, laju je diorg buat..dah expert.

Pehtu nak cite pasal drama cinta jgn pergi dah tamat tadi..huhu. Sib baik happy ending, maklumla kita ni tgh sedih kan, so nk laa menghappykan diri. Sekrg tingal nk tunggu cite teduhan kasih, ssid n dahlia jek.

Esok dah keje, malehnya rasa nk ngadap opis..huhu. Oklah, nak tido laa or layan candy crush jap before tido..

IVF - the result

Assalaamualaikum..
2 weeks' wait telah berakhir. Asalnya nak buat blood test esok tapi nurse, Ida suruh buat hari Rabu pulak. So we all pun follow je. Mmg berdebar2 lahkan...
Lepas dah amik darah kami pun balik sambil menunggu keputusannya. Last2 aku call Ida sbb selalunya dia hanya semak bila kita call. Mmg rasa x sedap hati jek
Dan....















Keputusannya adalah...tidak berjaya :(


Ya kawan2, maka berakhirlah penantian & sebuah impian...
Apa nak buat, aku telah berusaha sedaya upaya, berdoa siang & bangun malam juga utk berdoa dengan penuh harapan. Namun semuanya adalah ketentuan Allah.
Sedih jugak kenapalah susah sgt Allah nak bagi zuriat kat aku kan.
Org2 yg mendera/buang budak tu senang pulak ada zuriat..haiihhh...

So kawan2 yg dah tau terutama opis mate semua tak perlulah nak pujuk ye sbb apa pun x kan dpt memujuk hati ni. Hanya siapa yang dah go thru all this akan faham...
Tujuan aku cerita pun hanya nak kongsi pengalaman so that yg senasib akan mendapat sedikit info.
Semalam mmg teramatlah sedih, hari ni dah ok..maybe aku lebih kuat sebab before ni pun pernah kecewa sangat sebab keguguran..

IVF - ET day

Assalaamualaikum..
Alhamdulillah ET was smoothly done last Monday. Tp before that mcm2 hal..mula2 mmg dah confirm by Dr Adilah nurse Ida, yg ET will be at 3 pm. So aku budget ngan Am nk bertolak dr umah dlm kol 11.30 am. Aku ni jenis yg x nak la last minute mende2 serius mcm ni kan. So mmg as planned, kami pun gerak pi bangsar, singgah lunch kt kedai kelantan.

Lps mkn, saje nk check tepon, tgk2 ada missed calls dr Dr Adilah n nurse dia. Terus aku jadi gabra, rupanya nak awalkan. Lg la aku gabra, Ida kata lupa nk call pg td. Ni yg den lomah ni. Aku call Dr pulak. Spt biasa, Dr Adilah yg cool n lemah lembut kata kat aku, jgn risau, kita buat pukul 2.

So dgn kelam kabutnye aku pi Pantai. Dahla kena full bladder, so kena minum bagai. Kat Admission plak mcm ada system problem so agak slow. Alhamdulillah akhirnya dlm kol 1.15pm dah settle, terus pi ivf unit. So kami disuruh rileks kat lounge, kol 1.45pm br kena tukar baju. Sambil tu, ku cuba memenuhkan bladder yg mcm dah penuh kot, konpius. Adakah mmg penuh atau aku yg nervous.

Am dibenarkan masuk tp pakai baju OT mcm Dr tu..lawak plak tgk, terus hilang sikit gabra aku.
Lps tukar baju tunggu Dr Adilah dtg. Nmpk je Dr Adilah dgn senyuman nye terus rasa lega..huhu.

About the procedure, mmg lenguh la kaki sbb posisi mcm org nk bersalin. Mmg malu la tp sumer pompuan kecuali Am..hehe..lega. Wpun x lama procedure tp rasa lama sbb dgn rasa nak terjebat, dgn lenguh kaki nye. Tp procedure tu x lah sakit cuma senak masa dr nak bukak pintu je. Pehtu sbb bladder penuh, Dr siap kuarkan after procedure so x payah bgn pi toilet.

So lps baring dekat 1 jam, boleh la bangun. So we all terus la balik. So sekrg ni aku tgh rehat2 kt umah tp mmg x berapa nk rehat sbb terasa kembung yg amatlah tidak selesa. Kena dok bersandar aje, baring pun kdg2 x selesa. Ya Allah permudahkanlah...ameen.

Nanti sambung lg yek..

IVF - after OPU

Assalaamualaikum..hi all..

Alhamdulillah the OPU went on smoothly yesterday. Thank you Allah for giving me the strength to face it since this is the first time for me to be in OT.

Pagi2 lagi we have arrived at Pantai and terus pi Admission. Masuk ward double bedded since this is part of the ivf package. Rehat2 jap, dlm kol 10 kot..x ingatlah..Dr Nazri, pakar bius dtg to introduce himself.

Dlm pukul 11 lebih, terus tukar baju & nurse bagi injection ubat penenang. Sakit hokeh..Am kata besau gila jarumnye. After rehat jap, dkt kol 12 terus ditolak ke OT. Tp lepak kt luar OT dulu, nurse tanya2 soklan, pastu kol 12 kot depa tolak masuk OT. Masa tu x tau kenapa rileks je, agaknye sbb ubat tu kot. Bila sekrg terpikir, eeee mcm mana la aku berani kan semalam. Sekrg pikir pun mcm nak panik je..

Dalam OT, depa cucuk lagi utk drip air, ish..cucuk manjang lah. Pehtu, teringat kawan bgtau jgn lupa mengucap before bius. Aku pun mengucap je la spjg menunggu tu takut tetiba pengsan. Rupanya blom lagi daa..tu drip masuk air jek. Dgrlah nurse borak2 sambil tunggu Dr Adilah. Kol 12.15 cam terdengar suara Dr Adilah…hehe. Tp yg heran masa tu x suspense, mmg berkesan betul ubat penenang tu. Pehtu terus nurse kata nak start skrg ke sambil angkat mask yg lekap kt hidung/mulut tu. Pastu terus dia letak kat hidung & mulut, aku pun mengucap sambil bernafas mcm biasa. Masa tu sempat pikir, eh eh..apesal x pengsan ni. Lps tu zzzzzz.

Buka mata je, aku dgr bising2 pastu dlm hati dok ckp…laa x buat lg ke? Apesal aku dlm OT lg ni. Tetiba nurse ckp, dah sudah ye operation. Aik…dah rupanya. Pastu Dr Adilah ada lagi kat situ, kejap tu dia bagi injection, ovidrel kut, dia ada bgtau tp aku mcm blur lg masa tu.

Pastu kuar OT dlm kol  1 camtuh, rehat dlm wad, asik la nk tertido manjang. Tp nurse kata buleh la minum & makan dah. Maybe discharge dlm kol 5. Sepanjang nk tunggu kol 5, nurse asik kuar masuk check bp & suhu.

Dah panjang pulak entry ni, anyway discharge semlm kol 5.30, sama plak mcm office hr..

Eh eh baru dapat sms dar Dr Adilah, result of the fertilization:

From 10 eggs, 7 mature (M2), 1 immature (M1), 1 very immature (GV), 1 abnormal shape

ICSI on 7 M2 eggs

Today checked 4 fertilized :) Alhamdulillah

So ET most probably at Day 5..this Monday

Ya Allah..permudahkan lah...

 

 

IVF - Before OPU

Assalaamualaikum..

Semalam pergi scan lagi. Wknd hari tu ada gak rasa kembung yg x boleh pakai jeans..huhu. Dr check masa tu & confirm OPU will be on Wednesday which is tomorrow!! Please pray for me ya kengkawan. Hope everything will go on smoothly…Ameen.

Pehtu kan ingatkan ari isnin x payah inject dah rupanya kena jugak. Cetrotide on 12.30 noon. Suprefact on 1.30 am…pergh. So mlm tadi saya x tidur la kan sbb takut terlajak plak nak inject tu. Am pun konon x nak tido tp hmmm. So saya pun marathon la cite ‘Teduhan Kasih’ sampai termimpi2.

Pehtu kol 1 dah habis marathon, mata pun ngantuk, sib baik Am bangun. So bila tgk saya dah tertido, dia plak x berani nak tido, sat gi terlajak, naya. Saya tido dgn bestnye, masa Am kejut nak inject pun mcm mamai je.

Pagi tadi masa nk pi kerja rasa perut x selesa mcm senak sgt pehtu mcm angin pehtu rasa nk muntah pun ada. Alamak, jgn laa jadi ape2 plak nak pi keje. Masa kat opis tadi pun sama tp lama2 dia mcm kurang…Alhamdulillah..lega. Tadi pagi x boleh concentrate dgn keje, rasa nk baring je supaya x senak perut.

So hari ni x de injection..lega tp kena makan ubat:

8.00 am 1 biji antibiok vibramycin

8.00 pm 1 biji antibiok vibramycin + 2 biji dulcolax utk clearkan perut. Tak boleh makan dah waktu ni, Dr soh dinner awal dlm kol 6.30 camtu. So after pukul 8.00 x leh makan tp boleh minum air putih jek (air yg x berkeladak. Mcm milo, susu sumer x leh. Kalau sirap still boleh)

12.30pm – no food & drink at all sampailah waktu procedure which is scheduled on 12.30 noon Wednesday.

Iskh..tatuttt..Semoga Allah permudah kan..ameen.

IVF - info on injections & OPU

Assalaamualaikum...

7 June (Thursday) hari tu jumpa Dr Adilah…hmm telur ok cuma blom besar lg. Dr expect dah besar & boleh wat OPU on Monday. Lgun based on my anti mullerian hormone, Dr kata patutnya lg byk telur sbb bacaan nya tinggi & dose pun kira dah terlebih la tapi still telur tak la byk giler. Kira ok laa.

Dr kata kalau dia tgk test tu, mesti dia soh inject pergoveris sahaja, gonal x perlu tapi sbb result tu hari tu x dpt lg, so dia prescribe je ikut umur. Awat x habaq Dr...kurang sikit injections..hehe. Tp oklah kan nanti sikit plak telur.

Kiranya test anti mullerian hormone tu boleh digunakan utk determine dose ubat/injection utk ensure kita x terlebih, takut kena OHSS. Kiranye test ini predict ovarian response in IVF.

So Dr predict akan wat OPU on Wednesday..tatuttt…huhuh. Dr pesan lg, utk elak OHSS:

1.       Minum air 2 litre sehari

2.       Makan putih telur 2 bijik sehari (yaikss tp ku telan jua)

So lepas scan semlam perlu continue lg injection pergo + gonal + cetrotide sampai ari Ahad 9/6 (adussss). Ari Isnin pagi x perlu inject & dtg klinik utk scan lagi. Lg satu, Dr kira 1^st day injection tu sebagai S1 (stimulation day 1 kot). So semalam dah S7.

Oh ye, pasal injection cetrotide yg menakutkan itu, mmg sakit..pedih je after injection pehtu siap ada darah plak..iskh. Then dia jadi mcm bintat (tau x apa bintat, ala kalau nyamuk gigit kan mcm ada tanda tu). Dlm 30 minit dok baring je supaya hilang kepedihan itu.

Oh ye, ada yg nak tau on OPU or proses sedut telur..ni from google

How and when is oocyte retrieval performed?

All women who undergo this procedure will be administered human chorionic gonadotrophin (hCG) 36 hours prior to the procedure. hCG administration is the final stage of ovarian stimulation and the hormone stimulates the ovaries to mature oocytes in preparation for release. Its administration allows practitioners to schedule oocyte retrieval to coincide with maturation (i.e. 36 hours following hCG administration) and hospital working hours (i.e. there is no longer a need to retrieve oocytes on weekends or at nights). Women will generally be provided with hCG injections which they can administer at home, at a time specified by practitioners at their IVF clinic. Women then only need to enter a clinic on the day of collection and not for injection administration.

When attending the clinic for oocyte retrieval, the patient will be anaesthetised with a local anaesthetic. A transvaginal ultrasound will be conducted to assess ovarian follicular development and the number and position of ovarian follicles for aspiration will be recorded. A needle guide and appropriately sized needle are then attached to the vaginal ultrasound probe and inserted carefully into the vagina. At this stage the needle tip will be withdrawn into the probe so that is does not get contaminated. The needle will then be lined up with the most accessible follicle and the needle tip extended and carefully inserted into the follicle. The fluid contained in the follicle is then sucked into a syringe. The process will be repeated until all accessible follicles in the ovary have been aspirated. The needle will then be removed and flushed for blockages prior to insertion into the second ovary.

IVF - the beginning

Assalaamualaikum..

Lama juga saya memikirkan whether to write or not to write on my treatment. But I feel that I need to share so that if anyone of you nak go thru IVF, boleh la baca2 info2 & experience saya yg x seberapa ni kan. Sbb saya sendiri pun rasa happy bila baca experience org2 yg sedang mencuba kaedah ni. Terasa mcm 'you re not alone', but definitely we are not alone coz Allah will always be with us :)

OK let's start...

22 May 2013

Jumpa dr adilah minta advice whether to continue with IVF since IUI baru2 ni tak berjaya. Agak pening gak sbb tiba2 office nak buat team building on 14 June. Dengan confidentnye bgtau dr yg next p will be on 2 June..biasanya laa kalau 27 days cycle. So rasanya sempat pergi team building pehtu baru ada procedure2 ivf ni. So dr soh start makan progynova. Dlm kepala dok pikir, sapa nak inject kalau pi team building sbb nk bagi tugas tu dekat Am…errr..nantilah pikir.
Dr bgtau dia cuti & akan balik on 5 June tp dia dah siap tulis lah injection punye cite.

27 May 2013

Alamak dah p..oh no..cepat seminggu le pulok. Terus gabra, mcm mana ni, mcm x dpt je wat ivf sbb dr pun x de, ubat blom beli. Biasanya 2^nd day p dah kena start injection. Lps tu teringat pula team building. Terus msg Dr sbb x tau mcm mana. Dr bgtau yg mmg x boleh pi team building..up to me to decide whether to do it now or postpone. Last2 aku ikut je gerak hati ni..nak teruskan

Dr kata teruskan makan progynova. Eh..eh..rilek je dr ni, aku dah gabra ni sbb ubat pun x beli. Terus call kak faudziah saje nk bgtau dia maybe nk kena ambil ubat..ada stock ke? Kak Faudziah pun gabra sbb stock mcm x cukup. Terus msg Dr lagi kata takut ubat x cukup, bla  bla bla.

Dr jawab dgn rilek & cool..x pe you maybe start injection jumaat 31 May..phew..lega gak tp dlm hati masih blur. Ckp ngan Am..iskh biasanya 2^nd day p dah start amik injection, ni dah hari ke 5. Tp last2 terpikir, sape yg dr ni? Hehe..so ikut je lah ckp dr.

So 2-3 hari lepas tu dok communicate ngan Dr & Kak Faudziah psl dos ubat la etc. Dr soh stop progynova on 29^th & start pergo & gonal injecton this Friday morning 31/5. Sian doctor tgh cuti pun kena jwb soklan patient, ye la..sbb dr je cuti patient x cuti..hehe

30 May 2013

Ptg ni nak jumpa kak faudziah beli ubat & belajar mcm mana nk inject. Suspense.  Harga ubat RM4,565 (consists of pergoveris, gonal, cetrotide, ovidrel). Ops tergezut I tgk harganya. Kak Faudziah pesan lg kena loving2 je masa wat ivf ni..alamak baru je tadi hangin sbb Am lambat masa nk pi amik ubat. Ok kak, will try my best..huhu.

31 May
Start pergo & gonal..injection by my personal Dr Am…huhu. Continue sampai jumpa Dr Adilah on 6^th June. Experience? Perghh...mmg leceh jugak esp pergo tu kena larutkan dulu before inject. Gonal dah siap dlm pen dia. Ni gambar ehsan google..yg last sekali tu gonal

4 June

Suspense nye..ok ke telurku?..harapnye ok sepeti yg Dr nak. So far x de la bloated sgt2 tp ada la rasa. Cuma injection pergo tu 1^st time je ok, seterusnya rasa pedih. Gonal ok je. Ya Allah, berikan yg terbaik utk ku..ameen. Khamis ni kena start cetrotide, kena inject malam..takutnye bila baca review sbb ada yg lebam kat bahagian injection..


Oklaa..nanti continue lagi, nak cite pasal scan semalam tp mcm dah panjang sgt pulak la entry ni..

Photobook number 8

Assalaamualaikum..
I am writing this post using my new office lappy...happy dpt lappy baru, at the same time geram sbb org yg transfer tu x abis transfer my email so my 2012 till current emails sumer ilang. Plus lappy ni byk plak rulesnya, nak save kat C tak bole, dah la guna windows 7 ni i mcm blur sikit..iskh..

Anyways, back to the story..baru je sampai my photobook. Amacam, ok tak..ala biasa2 jek pun, dah x de idea lah sekrg ni. Kena cuti wat photobook dulu kot, mana tau nanti dtg idea baru kan. Ini gamba masa pi Cebu Island, rasanya I ada citer la dlm blog, cer carik...hehe